This is my second New Year as a member of J-Land. Funny, but I don't remember much about last year's end of year. I know we watched the ball drop in New York - 9 pm here - and fell asleep early. I think we may have awakened to kiss each other for the New Year, but I'm not sure.
This year may not be much different. Andrea and Amanda have gone off to an overnight church party and won't be home until 7 am tomorrow. Rob and I are alone for the night!!! This doesn't happen too much around here, let me tell you. I brought home beautiful steaks which we grilled on the George Foreman and we had a yummy final meal of 2005.
After dinner, I slipped into a luxurious bubble bath. I will never ever get tired of slipping into hot water and bubbles and scrubbing myself after a nice soak. Then I stand up and rinse with fresh hot water and wrap myself in a terry robe. It's almost heaven. Rob even came in and scrubbed my back.
Rob is watching the Raiders/Giants game and there are 4 hours left of the year here on the west coast. It was rainy and dreary most of the day, but the sun came out about 4 o'clock and the roads were nearly dry when I left work at six. I have two days off now. I worked hard both yesterday and today to prepare for year-end. I can go back on Tuesday with confidence that my part is done well.
I don't get excited over New Year's like I did when I was young. Even before I quit drinking, I had stopped going out because there were just so many drunks on the road. We called it "amateur nite" after those who never drank until New Year and then drank too much and got on the road. Still happens. I heard a story about a young girl in this area who 2 years ago decided to be a good samaritan and give rides to drinkers. One of them killed her for her kindness. What kind of world is that?
I know that there are many more wonderful people than awful ones in this world. It's just that the terrible ones tend to make all the noise. Wouldn't it be cool if we had a TV or Radio or Internet News station that only shared good news? I guess they wouldn't make much money, but I would read or watch or listen to all of it.
We have all had our ups and downs this year. There were happy times and disappointing ones, but we've made through (almost) to 2006. I have a lot of hope for this new year. I don't want to wash away what was or is, I just see the opportunity for new beginnings. I don't make resolutions. Never have kept one. That is one sure way to see myself as a failure. Through it all, with the many different times of my life, I have failed a lot. I have never, ever been a failure.
This is what I want to pass on to you as well. We all fail. We fail to live up to our expectations or those of others. We miss a step. We tell a lie. We look the other way. This doesn't make us failures. It can't. There is something in most of us that makes us recognize our shortcomings. For me, it's my life with Christ. For others, there may be another path. I just think that those of us who recognize when we're on the ground, tail in the air and grab our bootstraps and stand up again . . . well . . . we are the winners. We learn from it, get over it and grow on. Even if those things still hurt, we grow on. Never forget that.
We are taking the winners into 2006 with hope and joy. I pray that you all live, love, laugh and be happy this year.
Blessings to you all and . . . .
Much love, Penny